Every morning I stumble out of bed
The kids are screamin', they need fed
I fumble for clothes to put on my back
I open the door and peek through the crack
I wonder what this new day will bring
Will I want to hide or stand up and sing
Too much goes on in my life some days
And then there are those that end in a haze
I see the kids are all dressed for school
I think to myself "that they look like fools"
Looks like their clothes were picked in the dark
I don't say a thing, I don't have the heart
I don't have to work, I have nothing to do
Before I know it, morning is noon
I talk on the phone for hours on end
Nothing better to do then be bored with my friend
I sit through the day
With nothing to say
Oh my, oh my
How time does fly
Before I know it, the kids are back home
Low and behold, Mom's on the phone
They throw their stuff all over the floor
As they storm through the door
Chaos ahead
Till time for bed
They argue and fight
For the rest of the night
They yell for food
There goes my mood
Macaroni and Cheese
They're beggin' me "please"
I make 'em dinner despite what I feel
I serve 'em up a hell of a meal
They whine and moan, it's not what they want
Eat it or starve, I ain't a restaurant
They spend an hour making a mess
I tell myself I'm supposed to be blessed
I tell them to start getting ready for bed
Of course they pretend not to hear what I've said
I have little patience and they're wearing thin
And then I remember that murder's a sin
So I grit my teeth and bite my tongue
I give a glare till a bath has begun
They splash and swim in our tiny tub
I guarantee they're creating a flood
They take their baths one at a time
The other one whines, "I wanna get mine"
Bath time done, time for TV
They sit on the couch right next to me
We sit together for an hour or so
Then it's off to bed we go
I tuck them in and kiss them good night
I walk over and turn off the light
Out of the room I shut the door
Then I say good night once more
Then it's finally time for my bed
Another new day awaits up ahead
Wish I had something to look forward to
My life is so boring, ho-hum whoopti-doo
My Little Angels
The moon and stars will shine at night
Holding them so dear
Hanging on to them so tight
Removing all their fears
Up in heaven they will be
watching over us
when I look I think I see
Their little eyes upon us
All their hopes and dreams are gone
I didn't say good-bye
For the rising of the dawn
Took me by surprise
In my mind they are always
Singing, laughing, smiling and free
In my heart they will stay
Forever my little angels
A Time To Heal
My heart has been broken a thousand times
By those who have said they loved me
If only I had been given a dime
For all the times I'd been set free
Freedom is not what I am seeking
Love is the long term goal
Hurt is all that I've been releasing
My heart is no longer whole
A million pieces it happens to be
Love it seems is not for me
If only I could identify what I feel
My heart just needs the time to heal
A Friend
A friend is someone special
Who brightens up your day
Who listens to your stories
Hangs on to what you say
You are a friend to me
one that I will cherish always
If ever you should have a need
I will be there in some way
You I will not forget
Nor will I regret
finding you in this place
I want to meet you face to face
To see what you are like
And let you know I care
For you are a friend to me
For you I will always be there
Forbidden
When I feel I need to cry
I hold it in and don't know why
The world around is so judgmental
Even when we're sentimental
Happiness is what the world wants to see
But somehow it just isn't me
A shadow lurks upon my soul
But the world will never know
If one day I should explode
Then maybe then the world will know
But till then I keep it hidden
deep within this dark forbidden
Forever In My Heart
Sometimes I feel you close to me
Sometimes you seem so far away
I wish I knew what would be
I am wishing for you to stay
You hold me in your arms so tight
This night is never ending
But as we get into the night
With you, my love I am sending
For you must leave and this I know
My heart is full of love
And even though you have to go
It is you that I will dream of
When you and I are far apart
I know your love is near
You are forever in my heart
It is you that I love dear
Forever
Forever is a world away
so the people like to say
Forever isn't hard to find
but it is the furthest from ones mind
I pledge my heart and soul to you
For the love I give, goes out so true
You are the one I want for life
Someday I hope to be your wife
The words I say come from my heart
You've given me a brand new start
you love me each and everyday
Forever isn't world's away
Good-bye
As time goes by
I begin to realize
that this relationship is sinking
Then I stop and wonder what the hell I was thinking
I know that I love you
I know that I care
But is it enough
For me to share
If I leave I will never know
What would have come of us
But that is a chance I must take
This is not open to discuss
You will find another love
This I am pretty sure of
So don't wait around and waste your time
This will be my only good-bye
Inner Battle
There is a darkness that fills my soul
So many truths left untold
The happiness that I seek to find
Is hindered by thoughts within my mind
Many things I can't reveal
For many years they've seemed unreal
As though I were living in a dream
Trying to avoid the inner screams
I feel the battle deep within
One for which I cannot win
Anger builds upon frustration
Breaking all my concentration
I'm fighting hard to stay alive
To resist the pain I feel inside
One day I know that I will win
This inner battle deep within
Now
I sit and think what might have been
If I would have stayed married to him
I wonder what life would be like
If I wouldn't have left that night
All the endless nights I cried
All the times I would rather have died
All the thoughts I put away
All the words I didn't say
I fought for too many years
I've cried way too many tears
I finally got on with my life
I am no longer the little wife
You're not here to put me down
I no longer wear the frown
No more cuts and no more bruises
The road of happiness I am cruisin'
I'm happy now that I'm alone
My love for you is dead and gone
Don't think that you are coming back
I'm stronger now and that's a fact
Reality
Reality is the place I don't want to be
Reality is the place where you can't be free
When you live in a dream it will be what you want
Nothing to fear, nothing to taunt
This world that we know as reality check
has nothing to offer, so what the heck
If I stay in the realm of fantasy land
Then I too can enjoy on demand
I love the dream it seems so real
so why can't I stay there, without the raw deal
I don't want the shadow that comes to the surface
I just want my dream, it is what I wish
The Star
Beyond the clear blue skies I see
The star that I have named for thee
It shines above all I know
To let me know it's you I love
I know that you are there somewhere
No matter where we are, I feel you there
I think of you all night and day
And dream each night of that one day
When I can feel you next to me
Once again I will smile with thee
until then I remain hollow
For it is you that I will forever follow
The Storm Of Love
When the storm rolling in from the sea
The darkness closes around me
I feel the rage the angry tide
For it is the anger I cannot hide
I feel the rush of the roaring thunder
Trying hard to get out from under
The anger that wells up deep within
The rage that I feel again and again
My life is a whirlwind with no destination
I feel nothing at all but alot of frustration
Trying to get over the loss of a love
Is the hardest thing I can think of
The heart is a place where you hold all your trust
But when it is broken, to forgive is a must
If you hold on to grudge, let the truth be known
That love is impossible, it just will not grow
